sometimes i wonder, who are the ones whom i can really confide to when i really want to explode everything out, who are the ones who are willing to take time out and hear me talk scold beat or anything just to make me feel better, or accompany me go somewhere and let me unwind.

seriously none, or rather maybe that one or two.

everyone is either busy with their own things or can't be bothered.

i used to have "you" to confide to, but not anymore now.

everything happened just too sudden, my mind is fuckingly total messed up.

heaven didn't answer my prayers.

my boss insisted on transferring me to habourfront, despite me saying umpteen times of no.

and by saying no, it also means that i have to serve notice and commit till end of may.

by wanting the newbie, in other words they are going one big round to sacrifice me.

so what's the point of giving me 3 choices in the first place and converting myself to a perm part-time?

lee chia and sean encouraged me to go there and give it a try, but they don't seem to understand that the travelling distance is a big problem to me.

tampines to habourfront is crazy big time OK.

so after i talk and think through it, i will not take it that they are forcing me to leave, is i leave on my own accord and give the newbie a chance.

i'm not trying to be noble or something, i could have carried on, but maybe it just meant to end here.

phew, still ain't in a good mood.

still feel that something is still not being said out, like stuck inside but have no idea what.

can't help but to think and think.

ARGH fuck!

i wanna go somewhere and scream.

beach, kbox or escape theme park would be great.