i have make a very major decision, and i am all prepared for it.

i know its gonna affect me a lot a lot, i just hope they can understand and get their approval, if not i will still find means and ways to escape from such.

i have decided, there's no way for me to continue anymore, as long as i get out of there, i am willing to face all consequences.

i am really really very tired.

i really can't tolerate anymore.

i know if i continue to stay on, i'm afraid i will go berserk, suffer from sudden depression and more breakdowns and unhappiness.

i tried my best to do whatever i can, but i just cannot take it anymore.

i already can predict the end result, so to me i might as well end my sufferings now.

i know i am very useless, so people please understand what i am doing alright.

i'm sorry for all the beliefs that everyone have for me, i know i have let all of you down and great disappointment.

in a foul mood, don't wanna say much anymore, i think if i type somemore i'm afraid i might just breakdown again.

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